Sunday, April 1, 2007

The adrenaline has worn off....sleep deprivation has set in....

The first 2 nights that Garrett was home was a huge blur! He had difficulty the first night settling in....probably the change in temperature, sharing a bassinet with his twin brother and just being in a whole new setting I'm sure threw him off a little. Plus, he has been having gas problems since birth on the special formula the NICU doctors put him on (we'll be discussing this with our pediatrician on Monday). So that first night, I got up about every 15 minutes with him and finally at 5:30 am, I put him on Tim's chest on his left side and said "I need to try to get at least 30 minutes of sleep before Cole and Bella get up".....I was not a very fun person to be around on Friday. Either was Tim....we were both very sleep deprived. But Friday night was a little bit easier but he was still having some trouble....but then last night, I gave him some mylicon drops after his last bottle before bedtime and laid him down to sleep on his left side (with lots of padding around him!!) and he did wonderfully!!!! I actually got 5 hours of sleep....not consecutively but 5 hours of sleep broken up into chunks is better than no sleep!!!

One of the things I had remembered about when Cole and Bella came home was that in the NICU, the nurses always had them sleeping on their bellies. They can get away with that in the NICU because the babies are on monitors. So when Cole and Bella came home, they had a lot of difficulty getting used to sleeping on their backs. Tim and I ended up having to sleep with them on our chests on their bellies on most nights so we could all get a good night's sleep because I was too nervous having them sleep on their bellies in their bassinet or in their cribs. Thank goodness I had remembered this and I had asked the nurses this time from the get-go to have the boys always laying on their backs or on their sides so they would be used to it when they came the nights are actually going much better now than they did when Cole and Bella were newborns.

We took all 4 kids on some errands yesterday and I won't even write the "interesting" words Tim used to describe the experience. It was very stressful at times but I figure we gotta get used to it because this is our life now. I dressed Cole and Bella each in bright yellow shirts so we could keep an eye on them, as they do not like to ride in the carts anymore. And of course, we couldn't get down an aisle without someone stopping us and asking us about the babies and then looking shocked as they learned we have 2 sets of twins. One lady went to reach her hand in to Garrett's carseat and before she could get her hand in there I said "please don't touch him...he bites" and she said "really??" and I said "no, not really but he's only 3 weeks old and I have him covered because I don't want him being touched". I'm surprised at how many people want to touch a newborn baby, even when the baby is a total stranger to them. We had their carseats covered and people still wanted to look at them....I told Tim just the thought of people breathing on them mortified me but we have to live our lives. Thankfully, the end of RSV season is right around the corner and both boys had their Synagis shots or I would've just lived like a hermit for the next 4-6 weeks in the house, not taking them anywhere.

I have to say though even as sleep deprived as I am (I am a person who needs at least 8 hours of sleep to function properly), I feel like things are going well....sure, I can't remember my kids' names most of the time (my sister loves to point out that I keep calling Landon by Garrett's name and vice versa) and as I'm about to go do something, I forget in an instant what it was I was about to do, things are going much better than I could have anticipated. Tim and I are actually getting along really well, surprisingly. By the time we had Cole and Bella home for 3 weeks, we were ready to kill each other.

So that's the update for today....the adrenaline has definitely worn off and all the blurriness of having a newborn (or in our case, newborns) in the house has settled in but I know it's temporary. And the boys are so darn cute, it's hard to be upset over lost sleep or the fact that I can't remember when I ate last. I can't get over what little miracles they are....I can't stop looking at them and just being completely boggled over the fact that my body actually created both of them without any effort. The sun, moon and stars and every planet in this atmosphere must have been perfectly aligned when they were conceived, honestly. I can't stop thanking God in every blessing I say....I'm not sure what Tim and I have ever done to deserve being blessed like this with 4 beautiful children but we must have done something right at some point!!!!

Okay, it's feeding time here at the zoo.....gotta run....


Michele S said...

It sounds like things are going well and I applaud you guys for getting out with the whole crew already. I'm sure they'll fall into a nice schedule soon! Hope you gets some Zzzzzzzs tonight.

Hugs to all of you,

Bonnie said...

Hey Girl! I feel bad that I keep leaving messages on your machine. I hope you had a great birthday and things are still going well. I had to log in and see how you were doing. ;) Lets get together for a play date when you're ready.

~Bonnie :)

Jen said...

Heen - you always amaze me with your strength. You are doing an incredible job. Stay strong and remember to ask for help if you need it. Even if it is just something small, there are lots of people out there who care about you who would be willing to do little things. We just have to know what they are. I can't wait to see your crew. Let me know when you get settled down.


Melanie said...

Wow, Helene, I continue to be so impressed with how you're adjusting to your new bundles of joy. I love your attitude, too! You are blessed with four beautiful children because you and Tim are very special people. I hope you get the boys on a schedule soon, and I really hope you can get some sleep tonight (and the next night, and so on).

Hugs to all of you from us as well!

I figure that if the children are alive when my husband gets home at the end of the day, I've done my job.

----Roseanne Barr

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