I'm still here....still pregnant!! 32 weeks, 3 days....I'm finally past the point where I had Cole and Bella...yeah!! Okay, but now part of me is getting scared that these boys are NEVER gonna come out! By now, they're bigger than Cole and Bella were so I'm kind of surprised that they haven't forced their way out! I have my good moments and my bad moments....one hour, I'm thinking that I can do this for another 2-3 weeks but then the next hour, I'm nearly in tears wondering WHEN it's finally gonna come to an end. And it's not so much being uncomfortable that has me feeling this way but it's more the bedrest and not being able to be active and independent that has me worn out. I feel horrible watching Tim struggle to keep up with the housework and take care of the kids. I've been having them lay in bed with me or on the sofa (on the days I come downstairs) and read them books and watch tv with them so he can get dishes done and other things without having them under foot. He's exhausted and I can't say I blame him. He's been doing this now for 12 weeks and I think he's just as anxious for these babies to be born so we can get back to our normal life. Yes, a chaotic, busy life we'll have but at least I'll be fully functional again!
I really just take it day by day at this point. I'm having about 2-4 contractions per hour every day but nothing strong enough to change my cervix from what it was like on Saturday at the hospital. In fact, the other night I woke up in the middle of the night, having contractions about every 5 minutes, with a constant pressure in my lower backache and crampiness in my lower abdomen. After about 1.5 hours of this, I finally said to Tim "I think I might need to go to the hospital" and I called the hospital and the nurse suggested I drink a lot of water and take some tylenol and give it another 30 minutes. I'm glad I did that because the contractions started spacing out and after awhile I finally fell asleep. So obviously it wasn't the real thing. Then I saw an OB after my NST yesterday and she checked my cervix and it's still exactly the same.....
So I'm pretty much just sitting around waiting for the "real thing" to happen...and I have to say I'm actually getting really excited about meeting these little guys. I can't wait to see what they look like, what their first cry will sound like...I can't wait for the next chapter in our lives to begin. The fact that I'll be sleep-deprived on most days doesn't phase me right now....I've been on bedrest for so long now that I'm looking forward to how crazy my life will be in just a few more weeks!
Cole and Bella are doing really well and hanging in here with us. There's not a day that passes that they don't say something or do something that makes me laugh. I know a lot of people dread the "terrible 2's" and my kids are certainly no angels but they're good kids and a lot of fun to be around. And what I love most about them is how helpful they are and how compassionate they are. Sometimes when Tim brings me meals to eat, Bella will sit with me and share my food. Then she'll take my plate back to Tim!! And Cole loves to fetch things for me, like the phone or a book. Tim and I feel badly that we've been shipping them off to different people every time I end up at the hospital but they've had great attitudes about it. They love going to my mom and step-dad's house and we always get a report back from my mom about how well-behaved they've been. And this weekend they'll go to my in-laws house for part of the time and they're already chattering about going to the park and riding the choo-choo train. Tomorrow my sister is coming over and taking them to Chuck E Cheese for lunch. So they're doing pretty well with all the changes, which does it make it easier on Tim and I but we still feel guilty....ugh!
So that's the update for today....things can change on a daily basis obviously but I'm hanging tough....so far.....
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