Thursday, June 4, 2009

Rock star + Stage fright = Fame is never gonna happen

Yesterday was Cole and Bella's preschool graduation. As I watched the kids walk into the classroom for their little ceremony, I started thinking back to their first day of preschool last August. Has it really been a year already? Wasn't it just yesterday that when I dropped them off at school for the first day, my brain had to convince my heart that they would be fine, even though they were both sobbing? Each time I tried to walk out of the classroom and they would cry for me, I felt like I was throwing them to the wolves. So I kept going back and letting them cling to me, which apparently is the worst thing a parent can do. Although I think I've done much worse things than that over the last 4 years....trust me on that.

Anyway, I had a lump in my throat as they marched into the classroom in their adorable caps and gowns. I think my heart melted into a huge puddle right there. Some of the other moms were already crying and dabbing their tears away with wrinkled-up tissues. I looked back at Tim with tears in my own eyes and he just rolled his eyes and said, "Oh come on...it's JUST preschool". I gave him the evil eye and said, "This is a very emotional moment....it's a big deal! Our babies are no longer preschoolers....they're off to elementary school next year....our babies are growing up", as my chin started to quiver. He just continued rolling his eyes everytime another mom would start bawling her eyes out. I think even some of the dads has tears in their eyes. But not my lesser-than-sentimental husband, obviously.

So after they all got to their places, the teacher instructed them to start singing a song that they had been practicing. I had been treated to hearing this song repeatedly at bedtime for the last couple of weeks so I was eager to hear Cole and Bella sing it with their classmates. But....and this is a huge BUT....performing in front of Mommy in the privacy of her own bedroom is one thing....performing with her classmates in front of 50 parents and grandparents while dozens of camera flashes are going off is a whole 'nother thing. Bella's eyes got huge, her face turned bright red and her chin started to quiver (she's so much like me it's astounding) .....


And then....oh, no please don't let her start sobbing...please, God?? But the tears fell anyway.....


If that wasn't bad enough, she reached her arms out to me and while crying, in between heaving breaths, she'd sob, "Moooommmmyyyy, I want yoouuuu". Of course, none of the other kids were crying. Not even Cole, who was completely oblivious to her emotional meltdown. Other parents were starting to turn to look at me, smiling sympathetically....but I just knew they were all thinking, "Thank God that's not MY child".


Then after the singing, she calmed down, while the teacher called each of the children up to get their "diploma". As she called each child up, she announced to the parents what the child had said he/she wanted to be when grown up. Cole was happy to run up to the front to get his diploma. The teacher said, "And Cole would like to be a firefighter when he grows up"...and Tim and I just looked at each other completely dumbfounded. Huh? A firefighter? Where did that come from? Then we heard the teacher quickly follow that up with, "But for right now he's just going to be a train driver". Oh, okay....that sounds more like Cole.


Then it was Bella's turn to be called up. She had been calm while all the other children had been called up. But when she heard her name, the tears started flowing again. She walked up to the teacher and got her diploma but refused to show her face to the applauding audience. Miss Denise said, "Bella would like to be Hannah Montana when she grows up". I tried to get a picture of Bella smiling while holding her diploma....nope, not gonna happen.


After the ceremony, I was hoping to get a picture of both of my little graduates together, smiling beautifully while holding their diplomas. This is what I got....


Now Cole was in tears because his friend Carson got balloons from his grandparents as a graduation gift and he didn't. Who knew a lack of a huge balloon bouquet on preschool graduation day could mean the end of the world to a 4 year old? ME! That's who...I should've known. See, just add this to the list of one of the worst things I have done in the last 4 years.

I said to Bella, "If you wanna be like Hannah Montana when you grow up, what are we gonna do about your stage fright?". She said, "I was just a LITTLE scared, that's all....and I can just put on a wig like Hannah Montana and then people won't know it's me". I processed this in my head for a minute and thought that maybe I don't have to kiss my dream of having her buy me a vacation home in the Caribbean and in Greece when she becomes famous goodbye afterall.

Then I wanted to get a picture of them with their teacher, Miss Denise, who has been fabulous!! Every child should be so blessed to have a preschool teacher like her. She convinced Bella to at least make an effort at a smile. Cole, however, was still reeling from the fact that his parents are completely clueless on graduation gift etiquette.


We wanted a picture of them with their teacher's aide, Mr Pok. By now, Bella was all smiles (probably because the classroom was practically empty now and no one was watching her). Cole had just gotten done saying, "So will you guys get me some balloons too, like Carson?".


So that was preschool graduation, in a nutshell. The preschool days are over for them...my babies are off to kindergarten in the fall. Be still my beating heart. The time has gone by so quickly....too quickly. If I had one wish, it would definitely be to slow the hands of time. Let them be little for just awhile longer.

But God was thoughtful enough to give me another set of twins to experience this with because He must know what a huge sap I am and how hard it is for me to accept change. As we were leaving, one of the teacher's aides from the other class came over to give Cole and Bella a hug, and she said to us, "I'm so sad that I won't be seeing you all again". I smiled and said, "Oh no, have you forgotten.....we've got another set coming through in a couple of years...it's not over yet by a long shot". I'm not sure if she smiled or if she winced a little....but I was smiling for sure.

43 comments:

Jennifer said...

Oooh! Poor Bella! If it helps, I still dry heave before I go onstage when I play a lead. ;-)

So did Cole get his balloons? Hmm?

Erica said...

How cute!! Congrats to the grads. They grow up so fast. :)

Kristina P. said...

I love their little cap and gowns! Congrats to them!

Imjustagirl said...

How sweet is she! Congrats to the Grads! Enjoy the summer as the fall will be here before we know it!

Heather said...

Adorable!!! It must be a girl thing...that's what Noly would do too. She sure is cute though, tears and all : ) I can't believe how much they've grown up!

Alicia said...

Oh my gosh, Helene...this post was sooooooooo funny!! I was cracking up from your husband to the fireman, to your daughter balling, and to the balloons!!! LOL, I felt like I was right there with you guys! Ahh..what a memorable moment!!!

I loved this post!!!!!

Jenjen @GottaLoveMom said...

Ahhh... big hugs to Bella. But what an adorable graduation - cap and gown and all :)

My boys are in music/band. My 13yo especially can go up the stage and just deliver an impromptu speech without blinking or sweating a drop..but not me. I can't even have a regular conversation without feeling insecure if I pronounce the words right or not :)

Congratulations! Another milestone :)

Jen said...

When I start to whimper and cry and get all emotional my hubby gives me that same eye roll. What saps!

Morgan said...

Tonight we have a musical performance at church where the kids will be singing and dancing. During practice, I have one child that is sitting down staring off into space or sticking his arms into his shirt, and then I have another child that is running towards the microphone to make sure all eyes are on him.

Interesting how different kids are! So your twins are going to be in kindergarten this fall, huh? Exciting! My oldest is that age as well.

Maytina said...

OMG hilarious! On 'Intro to Kindergarten' day last month, my very social and so not at all clingy 3 year old lost her mind and cried when they asked her to dance. :( She takes ballet once a week and I'm not even in the room! Sigh. Poor dears, all we can do is be there for hugs when they need them.

The Pifer's said...

ohhh, poor thing---so adorable!!!!

Semi-Slacker Mom said...

Too cute! But wait till you drop them off at "big school". You'll need a Xanax for that one.

Mrs. M said...

Congrats on graduations :)

Sharlene said...

That picture of the two of them standing together crying cracked me up. Now thats a keeper.

Kelli said...

I'm also in Bella's corner! At age 30, I had to get up and give a speech to my class. I shook so hard the teacher gave me a red mark for fidgeting too much! Ha!!! Thankfully, I still got an A on my speeches. Whew.

Michelle Hoad said...

How sweet. This week I had a kindergarten graduation and a fifth grade graduation to attend. They are not doing anything for my son who will be leaving junior high and starting high school next year. I don't know what makes me sadder, that he is that big now, or that they aren't celebrating this huge milestone.

Meg said...

how funny!!!

Save yourself some hassle with Kindy graduation next year. Balloons and a wig are a must!

Congrats to the kids!!

Aim said...

Poor Bella and poor mommy...I think it's required that moms cry at preschool (or any!) graduation.

Desiree said...

Just know that you won't be the only mom crying when your kids march off to Kindergarten. My oldest just graduated preschool and I also had a lump in my throat. 5 years flies by!

Jen Majors (The Avon Lady) said...

lol, how funny. poor bella!

i love the part about your hubby. mine would do the same thing. roll his eyes a me and then at all the other women crying.

hope ya'll have a great summer

The Mother said...

Yeah, well, you really didn't want her to grow up to be Hannah Montana, anyway.

And enjoy those graduations now. I was all sappy then, too.

Now you have to drag me, kicking and screaming. Just spent two totally wasted hours of my life watching my son and 600 of his classmates graduate from high school. BORING.

Laura said...

I loved this post! Congrats Cole and Bella!

Elizabeth Channel said...

You made my night with this one! Those pictures were just so priceless.

I can't wait for the Kindergarten pix : )

D said...

Congrats to both. She's still cute though...even if she cried. Hams are worse though. They mug and won't leave the camera alone. I know I have two hams and am one myself.

Sarah said...

They are so cute! I miss teaching the little one! The pay for elementary school is better but I loved teaching preschool. You never know what the are gonna do!

Jenny said...

Poor Bella! I did LOL about her wanting to be Hannah Montana.

Your kids are adorable!

Sara @ Domestically Challenged said...

Geesh, trying to make ME cry? I was almost in tears with you all! I am the same way about change..especially if it means by babes are growing up.

Angela said...

Well, I'm sure you're relieved that you'll be able to do it "right" next time and not forget the balloons...heehee! I've been there! They really will forget and still love you when their graduating from elementary school! Such a sweet moment! Thanks for sharing!

Creative Junkie said...

Awwwww - how sweet! I remember my kids' preschool graduation like it was yesterday! Cried buckets, especially with my last one.

It's so bittersweet to see them grow up and pass these milestones!

newlyweds said...

Oh how sweet!! I can't believe they graduated pre-school!!!
They are so cute, tears and all!

Missy said...

Awww! Poor little things! But what precious grads they are!

Mrsbear said...

Poor Bella. My ten year old had a brief affair with the school chorus, first public performance, it took all of her will to keep from running off stage. I've got some great pictures of her looking like she's in physical pain, forget trying to sing!

Congrats to your little grads. It is quite a milestone, well the first of many at least. The time flies by, you'll be doing it all again in no time.

Paula @ Organizing Tips For Moms said...

Great pictures! My little guy had 4K Graduation this week and he wouldn't let me take a picture of him with his diploma. Good thing I got a picture of him before we left the house!

I think the balloons would set off my kids, too. Leave those in the car, please!

Paula @ Organizing Tips For Moms said...

P.S. I answered your question on getting started with organization on my blog: http://stuff2borganized.blogspot.com/2009/06/how-do-i-find-motivation-to-follow.html

Great question! Thanks!

Brooke said...

poor things! my princess (niece) graduated this year too - i can't believe she's that old!!

Kim said...

I feel a little guilty for deriving such amusement from your children's misery, but those pictures are too funny!

Kimberly said...

OMG! You crack me up so much! I love how they all of a sudden come up with career goals. Hannah Montana is awesome, I think thats my career goal now! I was a little shocked when Little Oscar said he wanted to be doctor at his graduation. I thought for sure one of the teachers planted that idea. I think I was right because that notion hasn't come up since, LOL!

Have a great weekend!

3 Bay B Chicks said...

Your kids are so, so darling, Helene. I have to admit that I laughed out loud when I read about your husband's "non-emotional" reaction.

I must also tell you that I have long wondered where your two got their blonde hair? Is that from your side of the family?

Enjoy your weekend, my friend.

-Francesca

Nancy said...

Awwww, how bitter sweet! They do grow up way too fast. I wish my little guys would slow down too.

Wonderful pictures and I love their future career choices. :)

twinmama said...

How adorable and poor Bella! She probably never processed what singing that song at preschool graduation was really going to mean until she was right there. Being on stage can sure be scary!

Okay, I got a big ole lump in my throat that Cole & Bella will be in elementary school this fall. Wow! I am in complete denial that preschool years go by fast.

Lindsey said...

Poor Bella!! Oh, if only it took a wig to incite complete lack of stage fright! How fast time goes by - they look so grown up in their caps and gowns! I'm not looking forward to pre-k this year with my oldest. Oh, someone hold me! :)
Thank you for a wonderful post, have a great day!

HarryJack's Mom said...

Oh, congratulations! We were grad gift losers, too, but thankfully Aunt Jackie came thru ;-) Have you heard the Darius Rucker song "It won't be like this for long?" Happy Summer!

wife.mom.nurse said...

Congrats to the graduates. What a cute series of pix.

Gee, I didn't know about the balloon thing...What do you think proper etiquette will be for my Scout's 6th grade graduation on Friday. I'm scared.

:)

Julie

I figure that if the children are alive when my husband gets home at the end of the day, I've done my job.

----Roseanne Barr



 
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