Thursday, August 20, 2009

Be still my beating heart....

Dear Cole and Bella,

Yesterday was your first day of kindergarten. I'm still having a difficult time understanding how you both managed to go from this:



to this..........................



Everyone told me that the time would go by quickly but I never realized just how quickly. It's almost as if I blinked and you both changed overnight. As much as I would love to turn back the hands of time to when you both were so tiny and fragile that you literally fit in the palm of my hand, I know the future is something to look forward to, even though my brain needs to convince my heart of that fact most of the time.

At breakfast, yesterday, you asked me what happens after you're done with kindergarten and I told you that you'd go on to 1st grade, then 2nd grade, then 3rd grade and so on and so forth. Then I said, "And before you know it, you'll be graduating high school and moving away to go to college. Then after that, you'll probably get married and have children of your own". In an instant, I saw most of your childhood and early adulthood flash before my eyes. I know it will go by faster than I anticipate...I want to soak it all in....I want to remember every detail that I possibly can.

Bella, you said, "What do you mean we'll move away? I don't want to move away. I always want to live here at home with you, Mommy". And Cole, you agreed..."I never want to leave home". My heart smiled upon hearing this. But I couldn't help but get teary-eyed, knowing you feel this way now but also realizing that when the time comes, you'll be all too happy to leave home and start your own lives as responsible adults.

My one source of comfort is knowing that as you grow up, you will always make us proud and knowing that you will go on to accomplish so many wonderful things in your lifetime. If anyone's going to make an impact and a difference in this world, I know it will be the both of you.

As you hopped into Daddy's car yesterday for him to drop you off at kindergarten, I took this picture....you both look so grown up, running with your backpacks on your back.



As I wiped away the tears from my eyes, I looked at your little brothers and I said, "Can I shrink-wrap both of you and stick you in my pocket so you won't grow up??". Landon laughed and said, "No, Mommy.....". If only it were that easy....




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63 comments:

Alicia said...

Aww...your babies!!

Now the house will seem extra quiet with just the other two!!

Shelby at DoubleUpBooks.com "The Twins Bookstore" said...

That brought tears to my eyes! That was a loving tribute to your twins 1st day of Kindergarten. It does go by so fast and I know when mine start preschool next week, the time is going to go even faster.

Kathy B! said...

I'm gonna have to leave the blogosphere for a few weeks so that I can avoid these "kids-growing-up" posts. They're breaking my heart and making an emotional wreck!!

*hugs*

Tracy said...

Yooooou aren't supposed to make me cry!!! Yooooou are supposed to make me laugh! Wahhhhhhh!!!!

Missy (Two Little Monkeys) said...

You had me crying from the beginning! I am not going to know what to do when Abby & Emma start school. Do you think the school will let me go and watch from the windows?!?!

Nancy@ifevolutionworks.com said...

It all flies by so fast, it's incredible. I wish I could turn the clock back even a little bit. Enjoy every second of it....

Carly said...

That made me cry. Its so hard how fast they grow up. When your living it everyday it drags on sometimes. Im so glad My guy has 1 more year of preschool. Kindergarden is going to be so hard. Love your pictures with ther big kid backpacks.

heather@it'stwinsanity said...

Ok, when you said the part about what comes next... first grade, then second, and high school, and college... suddenly my heart started pounding! It is too soon! I'm not ready! Rewind! Rewind!

Amy said...

What a sweet post. I know I will feel the same way in a few years.

Jenjen @GottaLoveMom said...

What a heartfelt post!
Thanks for sharing..and goodluck to the kids and to you!

Brooke said...

awww! happy first day of school!

Morgan said...

Were you originally pregnant with 3?

Time does go by so fast. Everyone says it will, but still... when it's your kids, it's hard to believe how fast the years go.

Very exciting that your oldest two are starting school!

♥georgie♥ said...

sweet sweet post! Cole and Bella are BEAUTIFUL...roots and wings mom....I fight it every day

Morgan said...

By the way, that is amazing that you have pictures of them back as embryos!

2SetsOfTwins4Me said...

Isn't it crazy.....Mine just started Kindergarten too.
Bella and Cole look sooo big. awwww!

Nickel Pickle said...

Awww! I got all teary eyed too!

Hit 40 said...

I agree the whole process is just amazing... one sperm and one egg!!

Great first day pics!!

kristi said...

OMG, my niece is a jr in high school this year and I am losing it!!! My daughter will be an 8th grader and my baby boy a 2nd grader. It is HARD!!

Jennifer said...

Okay, you've got me crying. I am so tempted to wake my son up so I can squeeze him. *sigh* It does go by, way, way too fast...

Amy said...

awwww..I have tears in my eyes. Its funny because so many days I say how I just wish they were in school and away and now that they are going to be going to preschool, I want to keep them home forever:)

Kristina P. said...

They are so grown up!

The Crazy Suburban Mom said...

Aw, this is so sweet and i know what you mean... My is going away to school and Im spending alot of time embarrassing him by crying

tracy

Karen said...

I know I only "met" you a few months ago, Helene, but I can't believe how fast they've already grown up!

MamaHen Em said...

Awww, and now I'm crying into my rice pudding. . . that was the sweetest thing. Doesn't it seem like it all goes by way, way to quickly? They look so grown up.

Jen said...

In a couple weeks, my turn will come.... I can already feel the tears.

Megan said...

awww how sweet!

Christina said...

Thanks for making me cry even more!!! (see blog for details, lol)
I don't want that day to come, ever.

Jan said...

Gets me teary eyed every time....0 to 5 in a blink of the eye.

Buckeroomama said...

Awww...

They just grow up way too fast, don't they?

Tami said...

I'm in tears for you..WITH YOU.
AS I look at my older boys..21yo and 18 yo.. I reflect back to those days..
How I miss them..How I miss them sitting on my lap, telling me they'd never leave me.

Now THEY HOLD ME. Now they tell me.. Mommy.. DON'T EVER LEAVE ME.
Promise you'll ALWAYS be here for ME.
I'll buy a HUGE house and have you live with us ok?

I LAUGH.. and cry.. wasn't it not so long ago.. I had begged and pleaded with them to NEVER leave me.. and to STAY in a HUGE house with me?

Now with my youngest 7years have flown by.. and I cry each year it does.

today MORE so then ever.,

HuGZ Helene.
YOU MY FRIEND ARE A BEAUTIFUL< LOVING MOMMY!

Stephanie Stearns Dulli said...

oh goodness that made me cry. They are so beautiful! My little one is only one, and it's already going so fast! This was a lovely post, thank you!

Jenny said...

It does go by so fast! Abby tells me she will live with us forever too. She sometimes says she'll have her own house, but we'll live in it with her. Of course, it's pink or turquoise! LOL!

Lani said...

Oh, my.. kindergarten! I can't believe they were so tiny! I can't wait to hear how the first day went:)

newlyweds said...

Aww its hard to believe how quickly they grow, I can only imagine how I will be. You did good Mommy!

DysFUNctional Mom said...

I told my kids' doctor I wanted to freeze them at 18 months old.
He said it's not so much the freezing as the thawing that gets difficult. =)
My oldest kid will be a JUNIOR in high school!!

jungletwins said...

Sniff sniff. They're not even my children, and I can't handle it yo. I'm going to be a basketcase when my girls go to kindergarten. You're holding up amazingly well, and you're kiddos are gorgeous as cells, preemies, and kidergarteners :)

From Janes Oven said...

Awww it happens way to quickly...I don't even want to read the rest...just thinking of mine getting older that fast no way man!

Happy friday

Stopping by from sits

From Janes Oven said...

Awww it happens way to quickly...I don't even want to read the rest...just thinking of mine getting older that fast no way man!

Happy friday

Stopping by from sits

PropellerHeadMom said...

That was a very sweet post. Thanks for sharing! Time does go by so fast. My oldest starts First grade in about week. My youngest starts preschool. I just can't believe it!

The Mother said...

After years of threatening to cut off food, cut off feet or tie bricks to kids' heads, I finally gave up.

My baby is nearly a head taller than I am.

Desiree said...

I am all choked up! I will be going through this on Tuesday. But lucky for me (or maybe not) my daughter only has 1/2 day Kindergarten. Utah is strange that way. Anyway-cute cute post:)

Melanie said...

That was beautiful! I linked to this post in my blog. I still have a few years before my oldest starts school, but I'm already feeling the time slip by.

wife.mom.nurse said...

Yeah for Kindergarten! What a delight it was. Even better than preschool.

I hope you all have a great year!

JanMary said...

Beautiful post, a lovely moment for you to record and remember.

Thanks for visiting my blog, and I LOVE the name of your blog :)

Kim said...

That pic of the kids running to the car is precious!!

From Janes Oven said...

Hey Girl,
Agave Nectar is a lot like honey.

Thanks for stopping by my blog

Heather said...

Awww! I can't believe they are in school already! They are getting so big!

Creative Junkie said...

Sigh. It's so bittersweet isn't it? I personally can't wait for the first day of school this year. As I said on Stacy's blog, I'm not sure if I can wait for the bus to slow down before I fling them on it.

I am so over summer vacation.

(BTW - giveaway on my blog, in case you have nekkid ears in need of dressing)

FranticMommy said...

awww....this post made me get all teary. It DOES go too fast. Our oldest started Kindergarten last year and I was just thankful it was my hubby getting him on the bus everyday...not me..I be a weepy puddle EVERYDAY if I had to do that.
Now we are looking at First Grade about to begin.
I am still a weepy puddle!
Thanks for stopping by my blog too! I love yours. Our youngest was concieved via IVF so been there, done that!

Tsquared417 said...

Beautifully said and so true. My 7 year old and I were talking about college the other day (it was in a book and he asked what it was "exactly"!) and he said "Why on Earth would I want to move away from here?" and I teared up too knowing he'll feel differently when he's 18. It's so hard!!

Laila Of Course! said...

Awww, that is truly a changing moment when they grow up just a little bit more. I hope you recovered, hehe. And thank you so much for following!! :) That really made my day.

blueviolet said...

I so understand your pain but those bright and happy eyes have to make you feel a little better!

twinmama said...

This makes me so incredibly sad and Cole & Bella aren't even mine. They are so big now! Wow!

Mellisa said...

I had a conversation like this with my oldest son when he was 7...I tried to explain that there will come a time when he will want to move out...he thought about it for a while then decided that he would live next to me and dig a tunnel to his room so that he could come back when he wanted to! Soak it up...it really does go so fast. It seems like yesterday he was a tiny baby -- now in 3rd grade! I love your blog!!

Alicia said...

awww first day of kinder was killer for me!! first grade however is a completely different story! both mason and i were ready for school to start! ok, i love your blog and your family is too cute!! and i saw that you're in nor-cal! ME TOO!!! whoop whoop!!

Flory said...

I have two older ones that I feel grew up too quick. Now with my 3 year old twins, while I can't wait to get them off of diapers, I am in no hurry to see them off to kindergarten.

I was all teary-eyed reading your post.

Thanks for stopping by from SITS and leaving a comment on my blog. Hope to hear from you again. :)

MamaOtwins+1 said...

Oh Helene - the first day of school is so difficult and it comes and goes so quickly! I love the song "Don't Blink" for times like these.

Thank you for stopping by my blog yesterday and giving the great advice. I posted an update today as a tribute to all you who helped me.

I am going to start following you now that I found you (or you found me :)

Theta Mom said...

Awww, I love those pictures! How DO they get from there to now so fast??? I can't even imagine how you feel. My oldest won't start K for another year or so...hang in there. I hear it gets easier! (((HUGS))))

Sara @ Domestically Challenged said...

I am crying now. Thanks. Sheesh. However, those are some cute little stinkers! I adore the kindergarteners at school. They are so stinking small and adorable!

Life with Kaishon said...

Awwwwwwwwwwwww. What a sweet post. Doesn't the time go so quickly! It just FLIES by. Are you sure you can't wrap the kids still at home up and stick them in your pocket? Every night I tell Kaish I am sprinkling magic stop growing up powder on him while I am tucking him in. It hasn't work so far though!

Mrsbear said...

Where the heck does the time go? I don't know if I'd volunteer them to live at home forever though.

Sharon said...

What beautiful pictures! :) My kiddo just started the 2nd grade and I still got teary eyed! :)
Found you via MBC and am now following!

Sharlene said...

When Ben starts special ed preschool in a coupel weeks you will find me curled up in the crner in a little ball crying. They are our babies. As muchas they drive us nutty, we never really want to them to leave.

I figure that if the children are alive when my husband gets home at the end of the day, I've done my job.

----Roseanne Barr



 
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