7 years ago today, on October 2, my oldest babies were born. Sigh....
To honor their birthday, I wanted to write them each a letter. Don't mind the emotional, weepy sap I've turned into. It only lasts for 24 hours...on their birthday.
It's hard to believe 7 years has gone by. I know....it's cliche, isn't it? But it's so very true. You don't know how much I wish I could turn back the hands of time to when you were first born....
...when you were as tiny as a stuffed animal at only 9 days old, when even the preemie-sized onesies were too big for you. This picture always makes me smile and cry at the same time because we still have that stuffed animal and when I look at it and compare it to how much you've grown...well, it just makes me realize how quickly time does go by.
You are now in 2nd grade and so incredibly smart that it boggles my mind. In this past year, you've soared in your reading skills and you can outdo me in math any day of the week.
Your artistic talent and creative imagination are nothing short of amazing. Every time you draw a picture for me, I'm blown away at how skilled you are. You once wrote a story about a dragon, along with some colorful illustrations, and I remember my eyes filling with tears as I read it because my mind was racing with all kinds of dreams of what the future would hold for you.
And you love sports. You're a natural born soccer player. I beam with such pride when I see you on the soccer field because it's obvious you have a passion for this sport.
You have a heart of gold and you just want everyone to be happy all the time. While you're incredibly sweet and cuddly, you are probably the most sensitive of your brothers and sister. You wear your heart on your sleeve and it's not easy for you to hide your emotions. This is, perhaps, one of the things I love most about you.
Your sense of humor keeps me in stitches. In fact, some of the things that come out of your mouth make me laugh until I cry. Even though you can be quite shy, you love making others laugh.
Some of the best times I've had with you are when you, Bella and I go out for sushi. It's funny that you never thought you'd like sushi until one day when we convinced you to finally just try a small bite and you fell in love with it! Now, you can totally eat more than I can when we go out.
Right now, at the tender age of 7, you still want me to come to school and have lunch with you and your friends. While I wait in the parking lot for you after school, during PE, you'll come running over to the fence to say hello to me and a quick "I love you"...in front of your friends.
Everyone tells me to enjoy these years because this stage won't last for long. They say there will come a day where you'll want nothing to do with me. This breaks my heart and I pray that they are wrong.
Your smile is bright enough to light up a room. With your beautiful blue eyes and soft white-blonde hair, you are so handsome...
So...happy 7th birthday, my little Marshmallow. You are so loved and I treasure you more than you may ever know. I feel so blessed to have you in my life. You truly were God's best gift to me.
I love you to infinity and beyond,
My sweet little peanut...it's so hard to believe you were ever this small.
Those 26 days you spent in the NICU were the hardest days of my life. I remember wishing for the days to go by quickly and now, here I sit, praying for time to slow down.
You've done so much in this last year....learning how to ride your bike without training wheels and how to do a cartwheel, learning how to read, getting your ears pierced. You're a little more cautious than most kids but once you have your mind made up to try something, you go for it with everything you've got.
You're a natural born entertainer with such passion for singing and dancing. In fact, you're taking a hip-hop dance class right now and I'm always amazed at how well you remember the dance routines. You pick up on everything so quickly and it's such a joy to watch you dance.
You also share the same artistic talent as your twin brother. It's so fun to create things with you...we can sit for hours sketching Barbie and her friends or just making bracelets with beads. Not only do you enjoy creating art, but you also love helping me in the kitchen. I love that you're not afraid to try new foods...recently, you've discovered how much you love calamari and crab cakes.
What I love most about you is how thoughtful you are. The very thought that you might've hurt someone's feelings literally brings tears to your eyes. You want everyone to love one another and can't understand why there is so much hate and evil surrounding us. I believe one day you will make a huge difference in this world, with your big heart and your ability to see the best in others, even when they don't necessarily deserve it.
You always say I'm your #1 best friend and always will be. And I respond with, "Even when you're 16 years old and I tell you that you can't borrow my car....I'll still be your best friend?" You answer with, "Of course, Mommy. Best friends forever, that's what we'll always be". I even recorded you on video so I can have proof of this.
There's not a day that goes by that you don't make me laugh somehow. Whether it's something you say or something you do, you're a constant source of entertainment to those around you.
My absolute favorite thing to do as you're laying in bed at night is to snuggle up close to you and listen to your heartbeat. I always say, "I used to listen to your heartbeat on my doppler when you were still in my belly. I'd say a little prayer before turning the doppler on...'Please, God, let there still be a heartbeat'. And now, here you are...in the flesh, and I can listen to your heartbeat as often as I want."
You giggle every time but someday, when you're about to become a mother, you'll understand.
You fill my life with so much beauty and happiness. And your smile...well, it still melts my heart and always will.
I feel so blessed to be your mother and I love you more than words can ever express.
Mommy (your #1 Best Friend Forever)
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